You query a novel, chances are you’re going to get rejections. That’s pretty much a no-brainer and last night, in my inbox, there it was. The novel is CHERRY. The agent had requested the full, read the manuscript, and decided it was a no. What did she say? To paraphrase: there was much to admire, including the dynamics of the relationship between David Brandt and Cherry, the parallels of their private anguish (I remember that one, very eloquent). She admired the ‘excellent pacing.’
She never fully empathized with my main character, David Brandt. She was never fully invested in the bond between Brandt and Cherry. She apologized for not connecting, wished me all the best in finding the perfect agent for my work. Actually, she was really nice.
Rejection. From an agent I thought was perfect. I had high hopes, I mentioned that in a previous blog post. Quite recently, in fact.
It bears repeating.
For some reason, I read that brief, very kind n-o and I felt myself sinking into that mire again, that dark hole again. It’s getting kind of old. Not sure if it’s lack of sleep or lack of hormones or what but this rejection hit me hard. And all day today, I’ve been trying to move past it. I posted some on AbsoluteWrite, emailed my buddies, talked to mr kk. Read some inspirational stuff. Tried to query ALBERT, make myself active instead of wallowing but man, it’s tough today.
I don’t know why sometimes rejection is so hard for us writers to swallow. I guess it depends on a lot of things, and maybe the why isn’t important. Maybe what’s important is that one assimilates it, however one does that on any particular day. Assimilate it, let it roll around for a while. Feel bad, sad, mad if you need to and then accept it, and move on. Because not everybody is going to love our work. Not everyone will love our novels, our characters, our writing. So much of it is based on subjectivity, of which we have no control.
But if we feel strongly about our work, if we believe it has value, we can’t wallow for too long. We have to keep at it, keep querying, until we find that one agent, that one publisher. We gave our characters voice and now we have to find a venue for that voice. We owe it to them, to ourselves, not to give up. To keep moving forward, pushing on, believing that if we keep at it, eventually we’re going to get somewhere. . .